one, my mom invited some lady from poland to come live with us for a while, until she can find a job and everything.
my mom didnt even ask me about it, and i dont even know the lady.ive never met her before.
i also have my grandparents living with me.and now my brother's coming back to live with us.

two, i moved downstairs a few months ago to have some privacy, because i shared a room with my sister. but now i miss my room upstairs, and i cant switch back because its already redone for my sister. and ive been in my brother's old room for the past 6 months, with no change at all. and its making me depressed. and i still have no privacy.

three, i just need some change in this house. my room is dark and depressing, and the second i step into my house, i start thinking and thinking, and it just gets me all sad. i think about my future, how i dont know what i want to be when i grow up, how i think that i wont find that 'someone' to be with, how i sometimes think about my sexuality.--i find that even though im pretty sure im straight, i kind of make myself secondguess it.. i just dont know.

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i feel like crying right now. idk what to do.