I have an interesting conflict. My character clashes with my talent. I am a fighter. Always, not just when I'm angry. I always have that edge in everything I do. Also when I don't do anything. If I can't do something I want to do, I won't rest till I do it. Period. I also hate cities. They represent (imo) everything wrong and dishonorable (long story, won't go into it now). I am an amateur kickboxer as well, but that's not so much relevant now.
Now as for my talent. I'm an amazing sax player. I'm honestly not bragging, but I'm probably the best high school saxophone player I've ever heard, at festivals and everything, and outplay a fair view pros. The crowd stands when a play, even if it's just a 30 seconds solo at a school concert. So naturally, this aims me towards a music school. I'm planning to go to Berklee. It's one of the top music schools in the world, and I'm pretty damn sure I can get in.
Here's my problem. If I am to become a musician, I will be stuck in downtown Boston, and after that my whole life will be centered around performing in cities. I hate cities. I would also have to stop fighting, because I wouldn't want to risk my whole future on a fucking broken finger or missing tooth.
My point is that I'm pretty sure if I'm stuck in a city, and have to life a saxophonist's life style, I will be restless and eventually angry. I recon I might snap.
Thoughts?