I just feel really low at the moment. I'm usually a hyper person, and find someway to atleast make myself happy but everything around has been like falling apart. And all these walls of support that I created for myself are starting to crumble, and I wonder whether they were every really there or just a figment of my imagination. I guess my depression has never gone, but the many didn't really notice that it came at all. And it's like I'm drowning, and I'm the only one trying to save myself. And I don't even know why I'm doing so, I just need to not drown. BELOW is SIMPLY RANTING.
You DON'T have to READ.
My mom and dad don't understand me at all. I'm treated like this teenage bitch, this teen who doesn't give a fuck about anything. But that's so not true. I feel that they barely know me, and who they think I am is actually the contrast of who I really am. And it's so frustrating, everyday, that they don't take the time to really talk to me. At all.
And then my grades are never straight A's, there's always that one B..no matter how much I study, even after getting a tutor. I constantly feel fat, and big and ugly. Especially today. I lost my confidence suddenly. And felt like this piece of crap walking around. I don't know what started it all. I think it'll end soon too, but I just really need to cry or something. It all feels really hopeless, right about now. And dreary. And long.
Sorry people. Really appreciate if you've read the whole way through.
And if you've got nothing HELPFUL to say please, fuck off.
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