then thers this guy i liked a year ago n he liked me
(dnt like him now tho i think hes still hot) and we got really close at a party last night and ended up kissin n doin lots of stuff (everything apart from sex cause i didnt wana go that far) and also kissin n stuff in the morning when we were both sober tho he was more eager to kiss me n stuff..

and in the morning it was just like.. we walked home together but i didnt really mention anything about it cause y'no i figured it was a one off thing and since i dont really like him to date him.. just acted like friends n stuff again..

then i got to thinking, oh my god, thats exactly what i was so mad about guys doin to girls...

but its weird cause i dont feel i did anything wrong and yet i still kinda feel annoyed at guys for sleepin with girls or doin stuff like that if they dont like em..

so weird when its reversed.. doesnt seem as much of a big deal.

don't feel bad, you don't sound like a slut at all, far from it if you're offended by the idea of people doing casual stuff/using each other... you just got caught up in the moment, and it doesn't sound like he's hurt... you'll learn from this and be more careful about self-control in the future

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