Ever since I transferred to her school at the age of 8 I have been seriously in love (love or major crush) with this girl called Sara who was in my class. Through the time we spent at that school loads of boys liked her and she knew it but just brushed it off.

So at the age of 12, we all started our new schools. She went to an all girls school and I went to an all boys one. We kinda of lost contact until the 2nd year (age about 14)of this new school. We started talking a lot and we introduced each other to our friends over messenger. Anyway, her friends told me that she would go out with me. Anyway she goes can I see you on web cam, and I was talking to her. Then she said no she wouldn't go out with me. Fuck I was heart broken at this shit because I knew I wasn't ugly but at the same time I was going the phase we you eventually look better ( >.>)
Anyway well we still kept in touch and shit.

During this time my best friend called David also started going out with her friend called Lisa.

Now this is where all the mad shit starts to happen.
During my 16th birthday David introduced his friend Jim to the group, the group including Sara and Lisa along with Jessica who is also a friend of the girls.
Jessica had a sleepover and invited David, Jim & I. We all drank a bit and then we were getting sleepy. I remember Jim and Sara lying on the bed and I dived in between them and I always felt Jim trying to push me out. Later,  I was lying on the sofa and Sara was lying on the other sofa while my friend David was in a seat. All of a motherfucking sudden, Jim comes over and lays down on the same sofa. I was thinking what the fuck, Jim knows that I like her and I hadn't given up on her. I thought fuck this and just pretend to sleep and closed my eyes on this shit. Then later when we talking late at night while lying down on the sofas they were basically spooning and slept like that. I don't even know if they fucking kissed and shit but whatever.

So the morning after the night before we all said our good byes. They never mentioned what happened. Then when I get home I talked to David about this and he said that 'he didn't want to get involved' I was thinking what the fuck. You are suppose to be my friend and I wanted someone to talk to about this. Anyway I get some weak texts from both of them saying how they are both such bad people and they could understand if I never wanted to speak to them about this.
I wanted to make a big deal out of this but I brushed it off and said yea fine whatever do what you want :). Because no one cared about what I thought.

So after all this, I went out with the group a few times. then all of a sudden they just stopped inviting me. Fair enough because I didn't want to go out with them anymore. I'd rather stay at home seeing as they were basically my only friends. But fucking David kept on telling me what happens when they go out and what good times they have. All the time I kept thinking, could he really be this insensitive and stupid telling me all this shit and making me feel left out.

Anyway David is an insecure bastard. He and Lisa were on and off. Finally she dumped him and he was crying and once she invited him to a party to discuss it but he got himself drunk early so he wouldn't have to listen to her and made a fool of himself crying and saying he wants her. All throughout this bollocks I was there for him. He even thought there was something going on between Jim and Lisa.

Anyway it turns out that Jim has had feelings for Lisa and David felt betrayed as he had poured his heart out to Jim about his feelings for Lisa yet Jim didn't have the guts to admit he too liked Lisa.

Yesterday, David said the most fucked up thing ever like 'We should have gotten rid of him after that whole thing with Sara'
When I go home and thought about what he said I was so pissed because I remembered him saying at that time 'he didn't want to get involved' as he was loved up with Lisa at that time.

Anyway, school starts in less than a week. Last two years of school and it's mixed (boys and girls) Lisa is coming to my school and is trying to be pals with me. I play along. I'm just hoping I find an attractive gf to get over Lisa as seeing her everyday for the next 2 years almost will be unbearable.

Well whatever, just wanted to get this off my chest and I feel much better. Thanks if you had time to read it.

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Post edited at 5:07 am on Aug. 30, 2008 by Its Bearsy Bitch

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