How I will probably never have a good relationship with my parents or my brother. It all started out when I was little. My mother was somewhat suicidal and depressed. She used to say things to me like "I hate you" and you're a "horrible person" or "asshole" etc. etc.
I literally have stuff in my personal journal that dates back to six years old that says "I hate my fucking parents. I hope they die."
I was a very angry kid. When I was 8, my parents had my brother. I took my anger out on him, up until recent years (I'm 16 now). So, my brother hates me.
Now that my mom isn't depressed anymore, she showers my brother with love, and takes his side on anything and everything. Basically, she kisses his ass.
My brother, who is now eight, treats me like crap most of the time. When he is not treating me like crap, he's talking about Pokemon to me 24/7. When I try to tell him that I'm not really into Pokemon, he gets offended, tells my parents, and I get the "You're a horrible big sister. Maybe if you were a better one, your brother wouldn't be so lonely." etc. etc.
Yet, everything I do is wrong. I can't even give you examples, because it could be anything.
It's a cycle. My parents control every aspect of me life. I truly cannot be myself around them.
It just makes me really sad that I will never be close to my family, and I will always be the black sheep.
And no, I cannot do anything about this. I cannot talk to them about this, and I cannot go to counseling.
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ignore them and if it's really that bad, move out 
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