So he got jealous today becase I went tutor a 15 y/o. I'm 19, he's 23, how could he be jealous of a 15 y/o? But I know the speech "I don't trust you, blah blah". So I lied about my past. But with good reason, considering he's a jealous control freak who made me feel totally miserable about the stuff I did (which was hardly R rated! More like PG-13! I lost my virginity to him). He didn't trust me because based on my past he thought I was easy and because I lied. But the other day he went over to his former crush's house, past midnight to help her with some paper that she could've done on her own (lazy bitch). And she's always flirted with him even though she knows he's taken!
We haven't seen each other in a while and today he wrote a sweet email telling me he was going to hang out with the guys but that we could see each other today. Today was my first tutoring lesson with the kid. Then when I called my bf to know if we were seeing each other today, he got jealous of the kid, claiming he doesn't trust me and blah blah. So I hung up on him.
Lots of hours later I call him, and he ignores a lot of my calls. Granted, I was really upset at what he did with that bitch. But i wanted to ask him if we'd hang out today. He ignored my calls and shut off his cell! So I texted him it was over and sent an email explaining how I was tired of him being so mean to me in the last few weeks. I know, text and email boo hoo, but he's been very unconsiderate with me so what else was I supposed to do? I can't take it anymore.
Yet I feel miserable because I love him so much but I feel like he was treating me like anything but his girlfriend. The fact that he went past midnight to go help that other bitch says a lot, the fact that he rathers hang out with the guys says a lot, and well, I know I hung up on him but e wouldn't even pick up my calls! He claims I'm nagging and smothering but I don't think so! Plus after what he did with the bitch what did he expect? Full trust? Especially when he himslef gets pretty upset if I go out (I stopped going out with my friends because of him).
I feel so heartbroken and angry and a lot of things because I bet he'll feel relieved once he sees the text. I know he'll be like "Finally, I'm beter off!" But I don't feel like that. Oh shit.