Life at home is ridiculous. My mother goes through a handle of vodka in a period of about two days, and she is an angry drunk. She never physically hurts me, except for the stress she puts on me causes me to not be able to keep food down. She will yell and scream at me about how I treat HER like a piece of shit and try to explain to me how everything that goes wrong in her life is my fault. If I try to stand up for myself, the yelling/screaming/insults get worse, and I get grounded/no cellphone/no computer, etc. Various family friends have tried to stand up for me as well, and every time this happens I get in trouble for it and she "breaks ties" with given person. My boyfriend is convinced that the only reason she keeps me around is so I can do the housework (All household "chores" are my responsibility- laundry/dishes/cooking/cleaning/yardwork/etc) and she can have my child support. My boyfriend and one of my teachers who I have confided in, as well as my friends and other people who care, want me to move out. I'm still in high school (I'll be a senior in the fall) so I can't support myself, even though I have a part time job. (I only get minimum wage). A neighbor up the street offered me a room for as long as necessary if I want to.
But I don't know what to do. I almost want to rough it for another year- I've dealt with this for 17 years, whats one more? Next year I'll be going to college, and my two top choices are in-state schools, but neither are commutable so I won't have a choice but to move.
But if I move out- My mother is going to put up a huge stink. I KNOW she's going to call the cops, and try to have the friend who offered me the room, as well as my boyfriend, arrested. And I don't know if I can handle that. I'm not sure if the wrath I will feel if I do this will be greater or less than or equal to the shit I will put up with over the next year.
what do you guys think?
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-Lindsey
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