I can't get any help for it, because my parents don't care, and think I'm just being an "ass", and are not taking me seriously.

It has gotten to the point where the only thing going through my mind all day long is "I wish I was dead".

Oh and have a monkey too =)

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Scandalousx3- I love you baby!

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been their what exactly is triggering these feelings?

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Well, there's a lot going on in my life.

Just failure after failure. I don't really want to go into that, though. The main point is, I keep sinking further and further into depression, and there's nothing I can do about it. I can't get help, and my situation is definitely not changing.

You need to find a way to make someone take you seriously: this doesnt mean doing anything drastic like self-harming or a suicide attempt, it just means trying to explain fully how you feel to someone who can help. Parents often just shrug things off and blame mood swings on hormones, but it can be more than that, and they need to understand this before they drive you away.
Can you think of anything specific that you have done that might have caused them to call you an "ass"? Think about what you might do differently to make them take you seriously and try and help you.

If your parents are a no-go area, a form tutor, school cousellor or doctor are all good people to approach. Explain that you are struggling with low moods and you think you have symptoms of depression. There is only so much help i can give you over the internet: it is one-to-one proper help that you need really, but if there is anything i can do in the immediate future, please PM me.

If there are no adults that you feel you approach, post back on here or PM me and i can try and think of alternatives for you. You dont need to die in order to feel better. I know it can be really difficult to lift yourself out of the negative mindset, but you should try. Keeping busy and occupied can help keep your mind off the darker thoughts, things like sport, reading, writing, watching absorbing tv or a movie, that sort of thing.
And please try and get yourself some help
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Post edited at 2:12 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 by sadnessness

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dont wonder why im not smiling, wonder why you are.