Goodmorning. I feel great. I know how relapsing is bad and is bad for my health but it feels so wonderful, losing weight day by day. Its such a great achievement. I feel so happy, I miss it so much. I'm going to look at my ED at a much better positive side, why shouldn't I. Looking how bad it is for you won't make me happier anyway, its just stressful. And the more optimistic I am the more determined I am to lose weight. Losing weight is so ecstatic. Its like my only happiness in my world, the only thing I look forward everyday. I used to think how bad it is for me, how obsessed I was and how it was ruining my life..etc. But you always have to look for the good sides in everything...I feel awesome.

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"I'm not a saint, but I'm not a sinner, but everything is cool
as long as I'm getting thinner"

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Please stop this, in the end this is going to screw you over and we don't want that to happen. You should find other reasons to be happy, healthy reasons. You don't need to lose weight, you are beautiful the way you are and I'm sad you can't see that. You need help love, you deserve happiness but not when it's coming from destroying yourself like this. Try and find something else, something healthy and safe to keep you happy. Find a new goal that has nothing to do with weight or food. Take up a new skill or something. Just not this, it's not good for you no matter how you choose to look at it, the consequences wont go away just because your not thinking about them and the con's definatly out weigh the pro's. The final choice here is ultimately up to you, I can't and will not force you to do anything but I want you to stop this. Take care xoxo

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Thanks. I know, but still this is the only thing I know that makes me happy. Why take it away..

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"I'm not a saint, but I'm not a sinner, but everything is cool
as long as I'm getting thinner"

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Quote: from Scarlet Tears at 9:08 pm on Jan. 1, 2010

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Please stop this, in the end this is going to screw you over and we don't want that to happen. You should find other reasons to be happy, healthy reasons. You don't need to lose weight, you are beautiful the way you are and I'm sad you can't see that. You need help love, you deserve happiness but not when it's coming from destroying yourself like this. Try and find something else, something healthy and safe to keep you happy. Find a new goal that has nothing to do with weight or food. Take up a new skill or something. Just not this, it's not good for you no matter how you choose to look at it, the consequences wont go away just because your not thinking about them and the con's definatly out weigh the pro's. The final choice here is ultimately up to you, I can't and will not force you to do anything but I want you to stop this. Take care xoxo

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Thanks. I know, but still this is the only thing I know that makes me happy. Why take it away..

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Because eventually it's going to start causing problems, it's going to turn out to be fatal if you don't stop. You have to find another way to be happy.

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Nothing is really over till the moment you stop trying.

There is only one happiness in life,to love and be loved.