I have cronic depression and am bi-polar. Lately I have been falling back into a really dark place. I cannot get into see my psychiatrist till after the 30th. I have been on the same medications for about 3 or 4 months; before I started see my current psychiatrist I had been hospitalized 3 times and could not seem to find any answers. I was put on a lot of anti-depressant and anti-psychotic drugs. They were not very affective and the side affects where always worse than the depression and mood swings with out them. I am currently on Zoloft and Trazidone and for the past couple of weeks I have been just completely exhausted and have spent many days just crying and I really do not have a reason to. In the past month and a half I have had a lot of stressers but everything is a lot better now so I am left wondering why my emotions are getting to be uncontrolable. If I am not crying I feel like am I about to and I am usually so tired I cannot even function properly. I have thought of things that I have not thought of in a very long time. I am scared of myself. Today was good but I have been extremely busy so I have not had time to really adress my emotions. I have channeled my emotions into my writing ever since I could write but lately it has not really done anything but make me feel like a complete basketcase. I know that I just gave this public forum my entire mental history but I am out of ideas. I just need some things I can do untill I can get my problems adressed by my physiatrist. I am coping better now than in the past but somedays just seem unbearable and I question whether living is really worth it if you have to live like this. I know I am not the only one but I cannot seem to find others who have been where I am to talk to.
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There is a cure for depression?
Don't you just need to do something that makes you happy?
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Oh, I'm so sorry for all the stressors in your life. It's tough. I've been crying too lately. I made a topic a couple of days ago talking about how I might be MANstrating. :( I'm here for you! PM me.
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doing something that makes you happy is only a temporary fix to a life long problem. Even when I am doing the things I enjoy I feel totally alone in a whole room of friends.
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one of the many downsides of being a smoker is that its harder to excersise, i used to run three miles every day and i a decent soccer player. it is also fucking freezing outside and i am kind of homebound lockdown for selfmedication. i guess i am just looking for peer2peer advice and support.
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