My boyfriend of 7 months and I were blissfully happy. We didn't see each other for a month in the summer holidays and when we returned to school [note that we both go to boarding school and are 17] we had fallen out of love with the other because we had grown apart. There was no chemistry. It felt like I was kissing my friend.

So we had a talk and decided TOGETHER that it would be best if we broke up, even though we didn't want to but because we knew it was for the best.

We said to each other, there's no one else, I can't actually imagine being with anyone but you right now, you were amazing. He said that 'I'm not dumping you, it's just not working.' Which we AGREED on.

So we were friends. This is all yesterday. That evening we went into town with our friends and we were getting along fine [once we broke up the awkwardness went] and I realised that I was falling back in love with him.

I don't know for sure if I am falling back in love. Maybe I just miss him, maybe just the intimacy, but I have the urge to cry most of the time now. All my friends have said they think we'll get back together and we'll realise that we're happier together than apart even though we did the right thing at the time.

I'm going to have a talk with tomorrow because it's been getting back to me that he has been saying the HE dumped ME. Not true. And everyone now thinks that like his old girlfriends he became bored of me and I'm just another one of his conquests. Not true, we were IN LOVE. Inexplicably so.

He's also, I sense, unsure of how to act around me. He keeps making jokes and jumping about and we don't talk easily.

I think that if I DO love him I will tell him next Saturday. Please can I have your opinions on this and also on tomorrow's confrontation.

I really appreciate this. I'm so depressed right now.

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Don't forget to be the way you are.

After saying how the awkwardness went, maybe it's because you feel there is no pressure and things are at ease. You are again noticing what you love about him and it's only natural to start falling back in love with him because you now are free to do what you want in a sense. However it might be the fact that you miss knowing you have someone that you can be close with and have such an intamicy and also because you know you don't have someone to hug, kiss and be with as a couple. It's partly because you had been together for 7 months and you have had the comfort of being with him and now it's been taken away.

Your friends might be right, you might both feel worse knowing that you aren't together and get back wih one another however you can't live on that hope because who knows maybe you were right to break it off with one another. All happens for a reason right?

The fact he is acting differently around you seems to be odd, because if you both felt it was for the best and it was the right thing to do then you would be at ease with one another, and the fact you don't talk easily gives me the idea that it isn't all easy as can be and is better as the awkwardness is still there.

I know it's late, however I truly hope that things go well and if you feel that the pair of you might be able to either get along as friends or possibly get back together then tell him how you feel regardless of what is going on, because that is the most important thing, being true to yourself and to him about your feelings which are there. I hope that everything works out and has gone smoothly for you. If you want to talk feel free to pm me.

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