I was close to her family and they all stop talking to me gradually after they found out how she treated me. She still wanted me around but I cut communication with her like 3 months ago. It hurt her bad and now I know she wants nothing to do with me. But I still crave/miss/dream-about/fantasize about her and her family. I've met tons of other people since me and her broke up 2 years ago but I still stayed attached to her. I am still unable to stop loving her obviously.

I am wondering how can I stop it, I know that you never stop loving somebody you truely loved. But why is the fact that I still long for her and love her still plague me even when I want to stop. I can't find a way to stop it and it's consumed me. My longing and missing her has consumed my health. Now I am nothing but skin and bones and in constant pain from the decline in my health because I still can't get over her or move on.

What am I supposed to do, for the past year or two I've been contemplating just committing suicide or just letting my disease consume my health and kill me so that I can never love/miss/long/think/dream about my ex or her family ever again. The sorrow I've had from losing her and her family is very bad. I don't know how can I recover from it. It's been constant since I met her 3 years ago. Like I said before I invested a lot of myself into her and her family. After losing them both I can't fathom living on without them.

What am I supposed to do?

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---*[LwWife]LazySouthSideHyna*---