I feel like I get along really well with my roommate when we're alone or with other people, but when this girl is in the picture (lets call her suzy), she tries to alienate me from the group.

They come back from the mall and tell me I really didn't give a shit when I got a ride with my other friends. I invited them cause i was going with a couple of our mutual friends and i wanted them to come along. But the first store we went into, they left without telling me. So we were barely all together.

So Suzy basically makes me feel like shit & that I her owe something. I tell them how I feel & that lately I've been feeling that me and Suzy aren't really friends.

I just feel kind of retarted for saying all that. I mean I wouldn't have poured out my heart if they weren't being bitchy in the beginning. I could have cared more about how I reacted and contained myself instead of breaking down like that.

ugh. fuck my life.

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